Another test this morning and another dark pink line! This must be it! Came back from the doctor this am & waiting for the confirmation call from the bloodwork & TVU. Just got the call...confirmed ovulatory cycle. The nurse said that there is at least 1 folicle, maybe 2 so I've already ovulated or am in the process. Time to get busy. Once again, super happy hubby!
Have I mentioned how much the TVU sucks?! So not comfortable I don't care who you are! I'll admit everything that I have had to go through the past few years leading up to this point certainly doesn't allow for any modesty or bashfulness any longer! I know that I have definitely come a long way from the depressed, emotional basketcase that I was during the first year or so when this all began. I have good days and bad days, but it seems to be improving so there are more good than bad these days. There was a time when it was difficult to be around pregnant friends (still is) or hear which friend is pregnant now (it always seems there are so many all at once - kind of like always a bridesmaid never a bride). Church always seemed especially hard. There are so many babies and pregos there! Many a tear was (& still is)shed while I'm there. I'm sure people wonder what is wrong with the crazy lady. And baby showers? Let's not even go there shall we? So many questions, why me? Why us? Am I being punished? So much guilt. Why did we wait so long to get married? To start trying? Well if that is what God's plan is...maybe God has chosen us to be adoptive parents...so many crazy thoughts and feelings. I even told my husband that it was okay if he wanted to leave me so that he could have a family. Can you say nutjob? It is such an awful roller coaster ride of emotions.
So for once, this phone call is a positive jolt of excitement and hope. Here's hoping! :)
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